Manage anger🔥

I'm a relatively shy person with anger issues. It's just the anger is eating me from the inside and I rarely show it.

It's building and at some point I become the human embodiment of a hot kettle.

I never burst out on other people but I wish I could do that. I wish I could yell at people and tell them how bad they are to me. Omg I feel so full of guilt, shame and devastation that I think that one day I'll drown in me to never be able to speak or interact with people in any way.

God, I want some power, some respect. I pray to you, I ask you, please let me go off this sin and be me again. A kind and loving person who wishes nothing but good to other people, who is grateful for the life given 💔