Find my dream dress🤍

So my wedding is quite soon and everything's pretty much ready except for one thing... My dress. It's an overwhelming experience for many I guess. However, I've been struggling with eating disorders since my teen years. Recently it started to feel like I'm winning but I'm literally so afraid to try any dress on. Many girls keep the image of their dream dress in their minds and I'm not an exception. Really uncomfortable tho. Idk what to do. Like, it's so awkward and stupid. I don't think anyone will get it.